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As she sits in her room, holding the gun she has in her hand, she’s searching for a reason and excuse not to do it. She holds the gun to her head and suddenly sees this hand and reaches for it. She grasps the hand tightly. It’s rough, but caring. The hand grabs her and pulls her up off the ground into a dark room. Then…a spotlight is directed on her. All she can see now is the hands coming out of the dark, into her spotlight. The hands grab her left arm, and pull up her sleeve to reveal slits in her wrist. One of the hands move over the wrist and over the cuts and they disappear. The next thing they do is reach for the gun. The hands grab it firmly and smash it to the ground. “This was not what you were meant for!” She heard the man say firmly, but she didn’t hear it through her ears, she heard it through her mind. “Close your eyes” She hears again and does as she is told. She sees herself, sitting in her room, holding the gun. She sees herself crying and foolishly believing she has no reason to live. She holds the gun to her head and just as she sees herself about to pull the trigger a man is there. This man took place she had been in just a second ago. The man had such a heartbroken look on his face the girl could barely stand to watch. Then, as if no one could ever have even noticed, she was watching herself again, pulling the trigger and falling to the ground. She sees her family running into her room, yelling and screaming. She couldn’t understand what they were saying though because everything she heard became muffled. Then, back to the dark room, spotlight still on her. The man stepped into the light. It was the same man she had seen take her place right before the shot. He asked her, “Why didn’t you listen to me? Why didn’t you follow me? Why didn’t you get to know me?” The girl stood there, speechless as to what to say. The spotlight turns off. The girl gets on the floor and crawls around to find the man again, but he is gone. She is left there all alone in the dark. Nothing to love, nothing to be loved by.