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All I want is to leave this life.

Start over again without all the strife.

These hopes, these dreams will never come.

I feel like my life is already done.

I don’t know how to fix this shit.

It all came as one huge hit.

It seems as though I am not wanted here.

I’ll go to a place that’s not so near.

Somewhere where I can start over again.

Somewhere where I can wash away the stains.

All I want is not to hate.

I can’t do anything but to wait.

For this life to come to its end.

So I can be with my one true friend.

Up there holding my hand.

Walking along the soft sand.

Talking to me about what I did, what I should have done.

Tears coming down as I watch the sun.

If only I could go back and change what happened.

Then maybe I wouldn’t feel so abandoned.

Maybe that’s how it will be.

Better come back from that strange reality.

For now all I have to do is suck it up.

Realize that I have to back up.

Analyze my life and what I’m doing.

And see what I am really pursuing.

Think about my purpose here.

Hold back that one small tear.

Just wanting to make one good decision.

Without the tears distorting my vision.

Swallow the huge lump in my throat.

Maybe then I’ll stay afloat.

Just stay here and live my time.

Stop acting just like a mime.

And talk to someone, maybe they’ll understand.

Perhaps they have experienced it firsthand.

Maybe I’ll stay and try some more.

Get up off this disgusting floor.

Take my life and turn it around.

I once was lost but now I’m found.