Thursday, May 06, 2004
hey..know whats crazy..i was spell chekcing my blog..and part way thru my comptuer froze..it tends to do that often..so i was like "noo.."cuz i have this super long blog..(which im pretty sure not too many of u guys will want to read cuz its so long) and anywyas..it was freazing up so i just decided to see if itll just get better adn it didnt..soo i started to pray..and nothign happned..and everyitng deleted..so then im like..hmm..well..o wel God..i stil love you..loll..adn i went to history and found it ther.e.adn it was cool so yea..here is my long blog... if u want u can just read a shorter one...anywyas..so i was talking to shannon the other night(we've never really tlaked b4) and we just talked about lots of cool stuff ..like how everyday we go through our lives doin our own thing..don't ya think God wants us to do somethign and get somethign out of each day? like..i want him to be with me thru the day and just show me things..soo..yea..right now im so sick and tired of school..and i just want to live for him...and i want to grow up and get married and live my own life...its so frustrating..but yea..cant wait for summer!!! its gonna be so awesome..and avalanche..some crazy things are gonna happen there with God n everythign!!! also..a super cool verse i came upon when i was reading this book called "He's Hot, She's Hot" its about finding the right person to date and potentially marry..and showed this cool verse..its
2 Timothy 3:16 "All Scripture is God breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work" ...
and there was also another one that said not everyone is mature enough for marriage and can handle the responsibility..that would b crazy not to get married...lol..i have to get married..i cant wait!:P...well i can..lol but u know what i mean.. anyways. hmm..so anyways, Shannon told me about how her and a couple girls decided to get up at 6:30 each morning and just read their bible and pray....so i thought i would do that..and this morning me and sonja met up and brought some blankets went to the school early and sat in the forest by the school and just read the bible about forgivness and stuff..we were tryign to find some answers about a problem we were both having and didnt know where to look(thre concordance in the bibe kinda sucked) so then kjersten(i think thats how u spell her name)-(from grade12) just came up because she was early for school and joined us and we just asked her questions and we totally got the answer we needed...hmm..so..most people know those old bracelets that said wwjd and all that stuff..but if you really stop and think about it..its so true..ive always just let it go over my head..soo...about the forgiveness thing..you know when your hurt by a friend and you dont know what to do..like..theylle say sorry ..but u feel like youve been hurt so badly that you dont know if you can forgive them..and you dont know if you can trust them...well think of how many times God has forgiven us and look at how many times we've hurt him!!! and yet He's still always there for us and always our best friend. Another thing we just randomly came by in the bible was something that asked the question "do you expect somethign in return from God when you do somethign good?" well..why should we? Jesus took the punishment for our sins so we dont get punished for them(well..by our parents but thats beside the point) we are, although, confronted in heaven..but when are we punished?(at least..i dont think we are..lol...people tell me what you think on that!!) anyways..and also..so many people will feel unforgiven even when they ask God for forgivness...like..we totally shouldnt feel that way..God took our punishment away from us so he could forgive us when we ask..we dont have to offer anythign or sacrafice our fingers or watever.. so yea..hmm..and also..a whole other topic...i know most people..probably everyone has felt a time when they dont feel good about themselves or just think their ugly or not perfect or whatever..soo when you look in a mirror and say "ew.." (most of the time it would be girls..idn about you guys..? tel me baout yourselves) or whatever..anything self destructing...its basically saying that Gods creation isnt good enough for you..and his love isnt good enough for you...now thats crazy!!! soo...anyways, about my life...ive been supier tired recently..falling asleep in class.. pms-ing.lol..haha...today i started to cry for no reason..well it was for a reason..but im sure any guys reading hihs arent too interested...haha..and then i start to laugh..so whenever im going thru that time of the month..or 2 times of the month...grrrr..i thought i was cured:'( but yea, ill cry and laugh at the same time..that woudl b jordans fault..he just looks so funny..lol..but its sooo lame!...and yea..i feel kinda sick..and most ppl know that my grandma is living with me right now and shes dying n stuff...like..i know shes dying..but she can b a nag...its frustrating..and my dads frustrating too..hes so demanding...and he just doesnt understand me:| i hate it..and yea..when i talk to my mom about my life ill tlak abotu problems with friends or whatever and just venting pretty much about everyitng...knowing its confidential and everyting and thinking were getting closer..adn then when the time comes when i want to go somewhere with those friends she wont trust me with them because of what i said..haha...so that teaches me not to talk to her much more:s...hmm...yea..right now i dont really know who i can talk to..about everyting..i mean..i talk to Jesus(read a few blogs down)..but i want a friend i can just trust with everyting and will b able to give me good advice thats God based n stuff...its tough...and yea...my dog is so ugly..she just got shaved:s...barf...only because me and my sisters never brush her...well anyways..this thing is getting pretty long...soo..heres a cool song...o yea...and that poem thingy that i wrote..i think 2 blogs ago or whatever..i geuss..i wsa really insprired by the movie thirteen..its soo depressing..but yea.. a girl acting in the movie had the whole tihng happen to her...its a cryign movie..haha...and if anyone knows how much i cry in movies ..wow.this was pretty depressing..but yea..it was a totaly wake up call to how crappy life can b..especially wihtout God:S..aaaanyways..if any of you have kazaa..download this song its called take my life by jeremy camp
"Here i am before you now
I'm like a child reaching out
Here i am i'm giving all i can
Breaking my pride I feel i'm through
Shattered inside i run to you
And now i give it all to you
Take my life take my mind
take my soul take my will
I am yours now, and i give it all to you
Laying all down before my king
Offering all my everything
Laying all down before the one i serve
I can understand the reasons why
You came on this earth and died
And now i give it all to you
I can feel you on my shoulder
So I know that you are there
I can see you paint my picture
The beauty is all there"
2 Timothy 3:16 "All Scripture is God breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work" ...
and there was also another one that said not everyone is mature enough for marriage and can handle the responsibility..that would b crazy not to get married...lol..i have to get married..i cant wait!:P...well i can..lol but u know what i mean.. anyways. hmm..so anyways, Shannon told me about how her and a couple girls decided to get up at 6:30 each morning and just read their bible and pray....so i thought i would do that..and this morning me and sonja met up and brought some blankets went to the school early and sat in the forest by the school and just read the bible about forgivness and stuff..we were tryign to find some answers about a problem we were both having and didnt know where to look(thre concordance in the bibe kinda sucked) so then kjersten(i think thats how u spell her name)-(from grade12) just came up because she was early for school and joined us and we just asked her questions and we totally got the answer we needed...hmm..so..most people know those old bracelets that said wwjd and all that stuff..but if you really stop and think about it..its so true..ive always just let it go over my head..soo...about the forgiveness thing..you know when your hurt by a friend and you dont know what to do..like..theylle say sorry ..but u feel like youve been hurt so badly that you dont know if you can forgive them..and you dont know if you can trust them...well think of how many times God has forgiven us and look at how many times we've hurt him!!! and yet He's still always there for us and always our best friend. Another thing we just randomly came by in the bible was something that asked the question "do you expect somethign in return from God when you do somethign good?" well..why should we? Jesus took the punishment for our sins so we dont get punished for them(well..by our parents but thats beside the point) we are, although, confronted in heaven..but when are we punished?(at least..i dont think we are..lol...people tell me what you think on that!!) anyways..and also..so many people will feel unforgiven even when they ask God for forgivness...like..we totally shouldnt feel that way..God took our punishment away from us so he could forgive us when we ask..we dont have to offer anythign or sacrafice our fingers or watever.. so yea..hmm..and also..a whole other topic...i know most people..probably everyone has felt a time when they dont feel good about themselves or just think their ugly or not perfect or whatever..soo when you look in a mirror and say "ew.." (most of the time it would be girls..idn about you guys..? tel me baout yourselves) or whatever..anything self destructing...its basically saying that Gods creation isnt good enough for you..and his love isnt good enough for you...now thats crazy!!! soo...anyways, about my life...ive been supier tired recently..falling asleep in class.. pms-ing.lol..haha...today i started to cry for no reason..well it was for a reason..but im sure any guys reading hihs arent too interested...haha..and then i start to laugh..so whenever im going thru that time of the month..or 2 times of the month...grrrr..i thought i was cured:'( but yea, ill cry and laugh at the same time..that woudl b jordans fault..he just looks so funny..lol..but its sooo lame!...and yea..i feel kinda sick..and most ppl know that my grandma is living with me right now and shes dying n stuff...like..i know shes dying..but she can b a nag...its frustrating..and my dads frustrating too..hes so demanding...and he just doesnt understand me:| i hate it..and yea..when i talk to my mom about my life ill tlak abotu problems with friends or whatever and just venting pretty much about everyitng...knowing its confidential and everyting and thinking were getting closer..adn then when the time comes when i want to go somewhere with those friends she wont trust me with them because of what i said..haha...so that teaches me not to talk to her much more:s...hmm...yea..right now i dont really know who i can talk to..about everyting..i mean..i talk to Jesus(read a few blogs down)..but i want a friend i can just trust with everyting and will b able to give me good advice thats God based n stuff...its tough...and yea...my dog is so ugly..she just got shaved:s...barf...only because me and my sisters never brush her...well anyways..this thing is getting pretty long...soo..heres a cool song...o yea...and that poem thingy that i wrote..i think 2 blogs ago or whatever..i geuss..i wsa really insprired by the movie thirteen..its soo depressing..but yea.. a girl acting in the movie had the whole tihng happen to her...its a cryign movie..haha...and if anyone knows how much i cry in movies ..wow.this was pretty depressing..but yea..it was a totaly wake up call to how crappy life can b..especially wihtout God:S..aaaanyways..if any of you have kazaa..download this song its called take my life by jeremy camp
"Here i am before you now
I'm like a child reaching out
Here i am i'm giving all i can
Breaking my pride I feel i'm through
Shattered inside i run to you
And now i give it all to you
Take my life take my mind
take my soul take my will
I am yours now, and i give it all to you
Laying all down before my king
Offering all my everything
Laying all down before the one i serve
I can understand the reasons why
You came on this earth and died
And now i give it all to you
I can feel you on my shoulder
So I know that you are there
I can see you paint my picture
The beauty is all there"
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