Sunday, May 09, 2004
idn what the heck happened...its like it built up and finally i broke...i wanted to leave..so i did...now im back...and i dont want to be. soo...things took a huge turn in the last couple of days..things with the family arent going too good...they were fine for a while but now its bad..hmm...i dunno if im staying here...im sick of it...my moms making calls today...theyre making it out to be my decision, but theyve talked about it before...and i think we both want it so its probably for the best... i hate it here..i dont want to stay..i want to go somewhere where else..I feel like Jesus is the only thing i have right now...it hurts though..it feels like no one gives a fuck about me right now..i hate it...and i dont know what to do..everything is so stupid...i just wanna leave...the constant fighting is ridiculous..i know lots of the problems are my fault so im sure life would be better for all of us if i were somewhere else..idn..maybe ill stay..i jes need to pray..
